berlari

ya aku masih mahu.

mahu berusaha mendapatkan apa yang hatiku rasa perlu

perlu agar dapat bernafas

perlu agar lebih bersemangat hari-hariku

perlu agar aku tahu aku milikmu

dan kau, pelindungku.

So I am back in Batu Pahat armed with a bag o' beef, 2 bags of Kurau fish steaks (also known as Threadfin Salmon or May Yau Yee) and an assortment of veges, herbs and spices, all thanks to mommie. So now I'm currently wondering when on earth am I going to finish all of that this Ramadan? I cook for one and I get bored with the same reheated dish. Sometimes my housemates join in but they always prepare their own meal.

I know! I'll save the meat for later. I think the fish needs my urgent attention.

I'm thinking: I am going to tackle this as strategically as I can so that I'll be able to empty out my freezer efficiently before the fish turn to nothing but blocks of frozen, dried out slabs. The key I guess is to cook in small amount, rotating between meat and fish, varying the menu every time (ape aku dh takde keje lain agaknye nk masak byk2 kali?) This is me talking ambitiously ok?

By the end of this culinary-venture I might graduate to be a full-time house-wife with a TESOL degree framed nicely by the dining area.

Wish me luck!

Option 1: Simple stir-fry (bujang style)

This is the most plausible for my busy tuition night such as Mondays. I get this awesome recipe off www.mysimplefood.com

Ingredients:

• 5 tbsp oil for frying 
• 1 sliced kurau fish (around 300gm), lightly seasoned with salt 
• Sliced ginger 
• Chopped garlic 
• Dip for fish- chopped raw garlic, red chillis, and soy or fish sauce.

Steps:

Fry-em and eat -em. Owh, not forgetting to saute the garlic and ginger until golden and put on top of the fish steaks. Now, continue eating em.

Option 2: Kurau Tandoori

Err, not too sure of this coz of some of the ingredients. I might end up with stuff I wont need after cooking this one. Nevertheless it is an adventure! I found this on www.resepi4u.com. So now i only have to remember to swing by the local grocers after work fr some natural yogurt. I wonder if they sell in small measurement...

Ingredients:

• 3 slabs of Kurau
• 1 lime
• 1 tbs of ginger (finely chopped)
• 2 cloves of garlic (chopped)
• 5 tbs of yogurt
• 1 tsp of chili powder
• 10 gm (im guessing 1 tsp?) of coriander seeds
• 10gm of cumin
• some Coriander leaves / Cilantro (chopped)
• salt and pepper to taste
• ghee (which im either gonna skip or substitute with um, butter)

Steps:

Prep the cleaned fish with EVERYTHING (save the ghee) for about 3 hours. Lather it up with ghee before roasting for about 15 mins. (meh, im just gonna throw it in the non-stick).

Option 3: Fish curry

This is the first thing that crosses my mind. No Googling necessary. Cewah!

Ingredients: (eye it and wing it)

• those yum fish
• a small packet of fish curry powder (Alagappa's or Adabi are okay)
• a pinch of turmeric powder for enhanced colour
• a pinch of chili powder (or skip if you're a spice-wimp)
• Onion (I pound this in my mortar & pestle coz i don't own a blender . You lazy bums can leave it sliced)
• Garlic (less amount than the onion, blended together)
• half an inch of ginger (smooshed)
• tamarind juice (either use Adabi instant paste or mix some yourself out of the 'with-seeds' version common at any Malaysian grocers)
• coconut milk (fr a single dish, about 1 half or 2 cups)
• quartered tomatoes (I like to dice some and throw it in after sauté-ing) for that Kari Penang touch
• greens (Okras/ peas)
• green chilies (them big ones) for deco

Steps:

Some recipes say just put in all the spices (item 2: curry powder allllll the way til coconut milk) in a pot and bring to boil.

Instead I often make a paste out of the curry powder, tamarind juice, chili powder, onion, garlic and ginger and sauté first til it smells yum.

Add diced tomatoes to pulp. Add in coconut milk, bring to boil stirring often on medium heat. Fish goes in next while veges go last. Salt to taste. Voila.

Option 4: Masak Asam Pedas (Sour and spicy)

Out of all my foodie adventures I have never ever neheheever tried making this ooh-la-la dish often famous as a local specialty in Malacca or Johor. I always leave it to the experts as the belacan (shrimp paste) kick can be deadly. Scrumptiously deadly i mean.

Ingredients:

• Fish
• Daun kesum / Vietnamese mint / knotweed
• 2 lemongrass (err, knock em lightly in your mortar pestle or using the butt of your knife:Rambo style)
• tamarind juice
• water
• grind up some onions, big red chilies and the infamous belacan (shrimp paste) preferably roasted beforehand.

Steps:

Apparently just put in the ground up paste, water and tamarind in a pot. Bring to boil, add in the leaves and fish and you are good to go.

Option 5: Sweet and Sour Fish

I just made this in the weekend and personally I think making Sweet n Sour fish out of other types of fish except Kerapu/Grouper is just not.nice. So I'm not even gonna go there.

Option 6: The Bazaar

Get your keys...

raw and ready to rummmble

A void

I have been waiting, nervously for the inevitable. Lest I've mistaken, I think it is coming. Looming, approaching, waiting to jump as I turn a corner. The signs are there, all over actions and words. Or rather, the lack of it.

End this misery. Don't push too far. When it happens, be kind.

Lives used to orbit around one and other. Yet now they rush through void. Being sucked and swallowed into the Hole.

Depression, you are doing it again. This time, just go the whole yard, and let it loose.

cdt: http://jcconwell.wordpress.com/2008/12/

both erred

maybe You just want more than what fate has to offer.

if that's the case, why bother?

pose yer. jgn tak pose

JADUAL PUASA SUNAT 2010: just a reminder from time to time

Acknowledgement: thank you K. NurDia from

http://www.ekawan.com/index.php?m=blog2&c=post&id=223544&title=JADUAL-PUASA-SUNAT-2010&usrname=nurdia

1. Puasa sunat tiap hari Isnin dan Khamis

2. Puasa Tiga Hari Setiap Bulan (Tanggal 13,14,15 di kalender Islam)
- 30, 31 Disember 2009, 1 Januari 2010/Muharram 1431 H
- 28, 29, 30 Januari 2010/Shafar 1431 H
- 27,28 Februari, 1 Mac 2010/Rabi’ul Awwal 1431 H
- 29, 30, 31 Mac 2010/Rabi’ul Akhir 1431 H
- 27, 28, 29 April 2010/Jumadil Awwal 1431 H
- 27, 28, 29 Mei 2010/Jumadil Akhir 1431 H
- 25, 26, 27 Jun 2010/Rajab 1431 H
- 25, 26, 27 Julai 2010/Sya’ban 1431 H
- Puasa (wajib) Ramadhan 1431 H - 11 Ogos - 9 September 2010 ***t275: dengan demikian, tidak ada puasa sunnah 3 hari di bulan Ramadhan..** *
- 22, 23, 24 September 2010/Syawwal 1431 H
- 21, 22, 23 Oktober 2010/Dzulqa’idah 1431 H
- 19, 20, 21 November 2010/Dzulhijjah 1431 H. ***tgl 19 November = hari terakhir Tasyriq, tidak boleh berpuasa***

3. Puasa Sepertiga Bulan - Yakni di bulan Dzulhijjah (antara 7 November - 6 Disember 2010).
Puasa tanggal 9 Dzulhijjah (Arafah) bagi selain orang yang melaksanakan haji. Tanggal 15 November 2010.
Puasa dilakuan 7 November - 15 November 2010, terputus dengan idul Adha dan hari Tasyrik,dilanjutkan lagi tgl 20 & 21 November 2010.

Tidak boleh berpuasa :
Hari Idul Adha - 10 Dzulhijjah / 16 November 2010.
Hari tasyriq 11,12,13 Dzulhijjah / 17, 18, 19 November 2010.

4. Puasa Bulan Muharram - ‘Asyura' selama 3 hari - 9, 10, 11 Muharram
Sangat dianjurkan tanggal 9 dan 10 (Tasu’a dan ‘Asyura) 26, 27, 28 Disember 2010.

5. Puasa pada sebagian bulan Sya’ban
Antara 13 Julai - 10 Ogos 2010.

6. Puasa pada bulan Syawal - 6 hari
Tidak diperkenankan puasa pada 1 Syawal (10 September 2010)
Antara 11 September - 8 Oktober 2010.

7. Puasa Daud - berpuasa selang seling
Berpuasa satu hari lalu berbuka satu hari. *kecuali hari2 yang dilarang berpuasa*

taken from http://www.ekawan.com/index.php?m=blog2&c=post&id=223544&title=JADUAL-PUASA-SUNAT-2010&usrname=nurdia

my own

Gained from conversations in, around and about my new read:

equivocal (adj): may have two or more interpretations. can be misleading

anthropomorphic (adj): nonhuman things described as having human characteristics. eg - Mickey Mouse

hot fuzz

I've got it again

that warm fuzzy feeling.

ngee*

Only you know what it is.

coz it has happened once before in Feb.

Glad i got it back..

Happy holidays.