Please. Make it stop.

Drafted on 20 April 2011

It hurts right here
Smack in the middle of my chest.
Like being punched only once or twice,
so there is no certain wound.
I feel it from time to time.
Like when I stopped driving but I cannot get out.
Or when I curled up on a bed screaming into the sheets.
Once I dropped down to the floor in the showers.
And once I stood crying against a railing,
in an empty hallway,
at 5am awoken from a dream.
But other times my chest is just a void,
my mind blank.
I stare into space sometimes hoping against hope,
I would be relieved of this pain.

I just wish that someone would've told me

All I wanted is

Michelle Branch - "All You Wanted" Official Music Video

I wanted to be like you
I wanted everything
So I tried to be like you
And I got swept away

I didn't know that it was so cold
And you needed someone
to show you the way
So I took your hand and we figured out
That when the time comes
I'd take you away

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

I'm sinking slowly
So hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

All you wanted was somebody who cares
If you need me you know I'll be there
Oh, yeah

If you want to
I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside
So busy out there
And all you wanted
was somebody who cares

Please can you tell me
So I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone

Lord give me strength

alahai nasib badan.
How did I end up here?

JT can twirl around me all he wants! *drool*

Lets take it by the horn, darling!

Kalau takut dilambung ombak,
jangan berumah di tepi pantai.

True dat.

down in the dumps

Sometimes,
even if we try very hard,
even if we put a smile on our faces,
even if we plan and plot and keep moving forward,
deep down we feel a tug.
That brings us back down
down in the dumps.